When i say peace.. i don’t mean world peace (although i wish that eventually happens) but infact i mean peace of mind. After 2 tediously long weeks of training, school, tuition and celebrations, i finally get some time to myself. Only to find out the i have visitors arriving tonight.. I love these people but what a timing. The tons of work and the whole ordeal of attempting to please someone… i feel a fever coming on…. My simple pleasure will have to wait…
I was studying earlier on and heard the song by TLC titled unpretty… Perfectly timed… practically an ancient song but one that holds true to many of us.
Many a times I have been in that situation, the one that I feel damn unpretty. Is it coz of the excess weight I have put on over the years, the way my skin has changed, the way I dress or the god damn waxing I have to go through (men have it easy when it comes to hair). I have been put in that awkward situation where an ex schoolmate meets me and some other friends on the streets and goes “Gosh! you 2 look like Barbie dolls!” to the other 2 and turns to me and says “you look the same, except that your hair has grown.” Ouch. Definitely.
At times I feel that I don’t fit into this stereotypical world. One where only the slim and sexy ones are given chances. You may not have brains but as long as you look good as arm candy, you’re given a shot. Maybe I am being bitter but I have seen it first hand. Many times. Over and over again. My ex bosses and even companies that I have attended interviews at, preferences, simple; the good looking one gets the job. After all, they are the face of the organization.
Seriously. It is at times like this that I feel that I have been hurt. Hurt in the way only people in my shoes will know. So what if you are academically inclined? So what if you know you are the best at what you do? Without that one chance, how do you prove it to yourself that you are the best? Crappy. I know. Tell me about it. People whom I know who are absolutely zero, in no way comparable to me are more successful. Not being envious, but surprised. What is it that they had that they got their break so fast?
Then I tell myself. I am who I am. If the world finds me unpretty, so be it. I know I am not hot nor slim nor sexy on the exterior. Beauty comes from within, make up and a slim body is for those who need that extra umph to feel good (although some are naturally gifted). I don’t need to make myself feel good by telling my friend “did you see that? that guy was totally checking me out. Gawd, wherever I go I get that!"
A mantra. I am who I am. I like me for me. I am successful for being me. And there is no way in my day have you made me feel unpretty nor will you ever.
It’s good to be me. There is no other like me. In fact, there is no other like you too.
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